Back again with these threads! For all the new folks, this is a safe space to tell us about anything cool you have going on, anything you want to vent about, and everything in between.
Remember, you are loved
Things have been up and down for me. In a glum mood today. Been hanging out with someone new, and that’s been nice, I’m just not sure if I really want to keep it up. Home life is…fine, I guess. Still living with my ex, they’re gonna give things until the end of the year to see if their career picks up any, and if not, they’ll move home. That said, they’ve been talking about that for years, so I’ll believe it when I see it. They broke down and finally yelled at me for the first time a few nights ago, so I silently carved a pumpkin and then just stayed over with the person I’ve been seeing. As nice as the couch I live on is, it was nice to sleep in a bed for a night or two this past week.
Job front is slow moving, but I had a promising interview last Wednesday. Was supposed to hear back Thurday afternoon or Friday, but even with a followup email I sent, no reply. Fingers crossed I guess.
I deleted a few of my dating apps, still have a small amount installed. A Maoist actually hollered at me this morning and wants to take me to an arcade. Not sure I have the energy though. Other people are asking me for dates, but I’m just…not replying. I should go do that now so I don’t leave them hanging.
On a brighter note, 9 day tour coming up in 2 weeks, so that’s cool! Without giving away too much (y’all know my band anyways and have seen my face), I’ll be going around the midwest. We’ve been doing well on selling merch the past few months, so that money should be sufficient to cover the tour. Also, we’ll have a roadie for the first time!
I’ll end it here I guess. Hope all my comrades are well, and I love you!
don’t have any friends. haven’t had IRL people to hang out with for about 17 years when I was still in high-school.
tired of being completely passed up on dating sites because I am boring and can’t make an “intersting” dating site profile because no life/hobbies. idc if it’s real relationship to a fling or FWB or whatever, I’d take anything, but I’ve never had anything at all and I’m 33 fuckin years old
there is nowhere to even go if I had the money or ability to get there. I don’t have a car and it takes me 30 minutes to walk to the nearest anything – and those anythings are just a handful of grocery stores and fastfood places, and I hate to say it, but I’m not going to make friends by trying to strike up conversations in the line to pay for groceries all day.
wasting the prime years of my life trapped in this shitty suburb-without-a-city, trapped in small basement suite where I have to live with an abusive grandparent, and unable to even get a girlfriend or do anything with my fucking life besides wonder when I will be forced to get a job at fucking McDonald’s again
don’t see much reason to not kill myself, even though I don’t feel bad enough to actually do that (yet). but I don’t see any other future happening for me. the only thing I have to potentially look forward to is the small chance that I will be able to get on disability for mental-illness like next year maybe (if at all).
I would offer to hang out with you, but I don’t think we live near each other. I wish you success with disability and I really do hope you find something to live for.
Lawyer up if you want to win your case. That’s consistent and reliable advice I’ve heard over and over again from those that made it. You only have to pay them if you win.
Did well today. Got groceries. Got my pills. And a comrade was nice enough to gift me a grubhub gift card. And I hung out with Mr. Softie.
I hate my job and I’m really lonely.
On the bright side I’ve been trying to be more…I dunno, present in my town? E.g. i went to a cafe and made brief small talk with the barista. Did the same with the person at the bookstore. I’m trying to hide myself less. Tired of spending all my non-work time in my room or walking by myself. I want to have spots I go to regularly. We’ll see if it pays off
Yay for tour! Boo for living with ex’s! Yay for interviews! Boo for lack of energy to hang with people! I hope the tour is soooo good
I would totally do the dating app thing but just for friends then flake on literally every person I talked to…it sucked and I felt horrible every time but it’s so hard to person for me nowadays.
I still have covid and am even more contagious now than I was four days ago even though I’m much less sick feeling. I’m very pissed about this because I’m missing this band tonight and it’s like the first time I’ve wanted to go to a show in a while. That said I’m looking for movie recommendations while I’m caged up.
My housemate went on a camping trip and it’s so nice to not have to be stuck in my room laying in bed (literally) for 5 days straight. I can’t wait til he moves out, I cannot stand living with the majority of people now and he is no exception.
That said all this inside time from being extremely depressed and now sick is making me very excited to finally go outside and ride my bike and get back into going to shows…we will see if that happens lol
Hope you feel better soon comrade! Hope you feel better soon!
Do you have any sorts of movies you’re looking for?
Nothing in particular, I’m kind of all over the place with my taste. Some films I love are Rushmore, Breakfast Club, Goodfellas, Perfect Blue, Hereditary, Friday the 13th, The Fugitive…weird and corny is kinda the theme but I’ll watch most thing besides fucking Marvel movies
If you’re interested in horror movies, I can make a ton of recs.
Beyond that…uhhh…shit, I haven’t seen much recently that is coming to mind.
Thank you, it’s all good. There will be other great bands! Going to shows just used to be suuuuch a huge part of my life and moving/getting older has made it harder and harder and I’m getting a lot of FOMO
